Being Put in my Place!

[CorianderShea Swansong]

Hello Sistars.

I am new to this group, but not new to the spiritual path. I have carved my own way, sometimes through very dark places. Through all of this, my compass was foremost my Heart, with MOFA (Mother Father God) speaking through my Heart.

I believe after all this time of suffering in a world that can not possibly contain me, sustain me comfortably, that I am ready to share my story and the visions that have at times plagued me viciously when I tried to deny them, and deny who I am.

Last night, something very strong happened. I was reading something from the newest Eye of Metatron periodical that has been popping up repeatedly in my reality and that I was not ready to accept. I think reading that triggered something in my DNA, something very very strong.

Through my physical symptoms and the intense emotional and spiritual visions I recieved both consciously and during my dream state, I kept hearing a strain of song in my head over and over;

"Fear is only in our minds, and its taking over all the time...."

I didn't know what the song was until I woke up this morning. The worst of the physical symptoms are over but my body still feels so strange. Fuzzy. The song was by Evanescence, "Sweet Sacrifice"

Lyrics;

It's true, we're all a little insane
But it's so clear now that I am unchained

Fear is only in our minds
Taking over all the time
Fear is only in our minds,
But it's taking over all the time

You poor, sweet, innocent thing
Dry your eyes and testify
You know you live to break me -- don't deny,
Sweet sacrifice

One day, I'm gonna forget your name
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain

Fear is only in our minds
Taking over all the time
Fear is only in our minds,
But its taking over all the time

You poor, sweet, innocent thing
Dry your eyes and testify
And oh, you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice...

[I dream in darkness
I sleep to die
Erase the silence
Erase my life
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day
A world of nothingness
Blow me away]

Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

You poor, sweet, innocent thing
Dry your eyes and testify
You know you live to break me -- don't deny,
Sweet sacrifice

Video;


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=truln6VnS4E


I thought it was Thoth putting me back in my place; telling me to get over my fear and just be who I am without worrying about the pain of not being accepted, but I was wrong. It's not so much him as it is my Shadow self, my Fire and MOFA working through that.

I'm going to have to get over this hurdle sooner or later and stop concerning myself with making others uncomfortable with my Truth. Maybe they need to be made uncomfortable. I'm fighting against myself, against my Truths because I'm afraid. And it needs to stop...I need to be who I am and speak my Truths plainly. I need to let go of this fear pain. I'm never going to be happy, I'm never going to be free until that happens.


Thank you for your time in reading this. :)
D'Anu Ka- I extend the Ring of Soul Friendship "From the Earth"
(Danu was the Celtic name for Gaia)
:Love Light and Peace:

- Corie

[Yara Ragu]

I know in my heart what you are talking about, CorianderShea.

From that shore where nothing is right or wrong, we can see how our Being and its expression is a constitutional part of the ALL. There's no greater freedom than simply let ourselves BE -nor better gift to Life.

I WELCOME WHOLEHEARTEDLY YOU ON BOARD of this vessel for such an extraordinary journey,

ANU KA, SISTAR!

Yara

[CorianderShea Swansong]

Thank you so much StarHeart, your Love and friendship continually amazes me. *Hug*

[Starheart Erdhein]

Beautiful Cori! I support you (as does the Universe) wholeheartedly!